That's all about her!

2011-05-05T19:11:00.001+08:00

Finally it's my holiday! Don't really know what to do so far. Received companies call yesterday, still arranging for the interview. I can't stay home! Really really bored!

Think I'm gonna slice up my rock melon (: SWEET!

2011-04-28T23:47:00.002+08:00

Usually when you are so used to in expecting certain question, reply, situation or an outcome. What if it don't happens that way anymore? Could it be usual?

I don't know why but it just kind of upset really much in the inside. It would be ridiculous if I were to grumble or make a fuss, which I do not want. If its that obvious yet unnoticeable, simply because he weren't observing every little small details about you.

Girls, used to expect boyfriend to kiss and make up with her after a fight or quarrel. It's always like this right? Never seen a girl initiate to take a sting out of a matter. Sometimes, I would mistaken these as reliance. There's no love to talk about in reliance. It's just I am used to you there and you are used to me here. Rather sympathy for relationship that ended up like this.

I guess I'm the black sheep. The odd one that never thinks like how other girls does, I am so freaking afraid that its just reliance. After all, you have to undergo this break-up process and start all over again. It's tiring I know. I just find it better in anyways than to abide this reliance relationship and waste so much time trying so hard.

I just kind of feel it but not giving any wonder thoughts. For the first time, it ever happened to me.

2011-04-27T06:00:00.002+08:00

Woah! And a YA! It's been freaking long since I want to do some update at this blog. Well, I changed to Xanga but unfortunately, it just didn't help much in updating on time. So what is wrong with me to update at this hour?! I must be crazy.

I am so excited for my holiday that is like 3 months! Who doesn't? Cash tight just manage to perk me up for some work! Might be useful to earn a some money during this holiday. YAHZZZZ! I hope I can strike some LOTTO! But I think I should just dream on.

I feel like I'm so unhealthy! Sleeping at unusual hour, improper meals, unhealthy diet and most importantly! WATER! I HAVEN BEEN DRINKINGGG! Oh what the hell! Foresee that I'll collapse one SUNNY day. Hmm no idea why sunny but I like it.

I need to do some exercise! I gained weight like 1.5kg! I am 39.5kg now. Yes its not heavy but I had never gain weight in such a short period. That is a "no good" sign.

Never forget about this, what goes around comes around. I believe so, more like a karma right? I feel such a waste for one to live around life being a swindle or bad intention in nature. You people should just die! Seriously, we may not born the same in physically or our background. Trying so hard to get what you want with bad intention is just wasting your own capability! Why not you die rather dragging other people suffering which was not what they deserve?

Okay, I am not being cruel. I just feel sad that these people are generally useless. Sometimes, I feel like putting them in state of handicap because they are abusing of what they were gifted.

Whatever, met too much of the same kind in my life. Wish I could do spells and bound them.

Right, should sleep now. Come back again ya?!

2010-09-22T03:12:00.003+08:00

I really had a serious thought of closing down my blog! Is pointless to have it if I don't update. Anyway, was busy with my school stuff that I did not even have the time to keep in connected thru the netizens, oh my! I think I've been living like a cave-man more and more likely.
I'm still left with Drawing, 2D, 3D, CCS, Photography. I'm gonna finish up with my photography BY TOMORROW! I really need to push myself in moving! How upsetting it was to realize that the ones closest to me had left and the one that I aint close with are the closest now.

For those who know me, you know what I'm saying. Should I open a Xanga? Cause I'm tired of Blogger. Please grant me more time!
I promised Enpei to get her really something for birthday, I'm thinking... Iphone 4G? Or should I just let her shop to the extravagance of 1k? I don't know!

I want to go for the F1 thing! So tempted to... I really don't know what to say now.

School's been fine, I'm always independent, yes I AM! Had Straight cut fries almost everyday for lunch in my school but now I think I'm suffering from Potatoesickyuckillness. Consecutive having Potatoes in a week, really enough of it. I'm back to green tea haagen dazs! Ate up 1 tup yesterday and half tup today!

Really stress up in school, I had several symptoms occurring now! I feed myself like cow! I eat almost anything edible! I even start to drink COFFEE!!! THAT IS SUPER GROSS! But no choice! I make a cup of coffee, sipped it and I poured it away. FOR WHAT I MAKE WHEN I KNOW I COULDN'T DRINK IT! I am not having some serious allergy towards coffee, JUST DON'T LIKE IT.
I spent my money like absurdity, bought this but dint use it at all.

I really start to distance myself with guys, except friends I know them really long and some not. This life must go on till I graduate. I do not want to elaborate more stress cause all of it was just a pain in my neck. Imagine having 6 hours of sleep for 2 days in a week. Gawdd! That is the life in school for Singapore!

I must persevere! I must! Okay reward myself end of this month with a LV and Burberry bag (: YES! DEAL! GO GO GO!!!!!

Nights for those still know my blog existence.

2010-09-07T22:51:00.003+08:00

I told you! Whenever I'm upset I'll blog! And guess what! I'm really upset now.
Devastated, languishing, hopeless and dying.

It prove that I'm a loser, I can't forget everything! Simply cause I'm stupid.
Yea yea yea, excuses and excuses and still excuses. Good way to actually avoid. Not once, twice! THIS IS CALL KARMA! Guys, you better believe in this.
What goes around comes around, and no one will be there for you.

So here it is, I've nicely stack my homework untouched for 2 days! Why? I just couldn't do it. Too many distraction..Way too much for me to handle.

Today! FANTASTIC! Guess what? Secret. Heartless or headstrong?
When you meant it in brunch of words, people tend to believe so much. When you meant it the truth, they doubted, questioned, suspect, giving nonchalance.

So much to suffer this week, so much. I have yet to finish anything for school, dragging time and got affected so much! I hope the world ends..maybe just my world.

Please don't bring yourself over too much when they already said NO.
Am I considered LUCKY? Or SUAY?
The more you wanted it, the more it escape from you.

Greed can actually destroy everything you enjoying now. So! Never be greedy.

White lies always the tragic caused. What is this???? Why even there's a white lie?

I dont know...Crying is always the best LULLABY TO SLEEP!
I dont know how but i'm gonna try to sleep.

2010-08-16T01:08:00.003+08:00

Blogging time! Today's been real bad! Ultimately, wasn't a pleasant day for me. Went to Asia Civilisation Museum ALONE! Get all my research done and quickly went home to restore my phone! It hanged half way! What luck!

Anyway, pondering over some stuff lately. I think I should just close down my blog and open a Xanga instead. No idea why.
School's fine, nice classmates and I've got some gong one, some funny one, some lazy one, some bo chap one. WOW..

Maybe its due to my school, my boyfriend might be a little worried about me. Cause I get to meet new people including guys. Its rather sensitive.

But at least he cares, which matters more than anything else I guess.
I'm worn out by work and school's project. Did not get a chance to accompany my boyfriend today. I feel worst.

How can things go smoothly? How...
When something matters, you either pissed or you remained quiet. You don't want to lose somebody of course, you'll remain silent even though it kills inside you just have to shut the fug up.

And that's life, dealing with emotions and feelings.
I got a free entry to the Museum! How great!
Tomorrow class again! Lecture in the morning..AWW I feel like skipping! ;(

2010-07-02T13:56:00.002+08:00

What is your theory of a 'True Friend'? What is the definition about it? For those who know what happened earlier on, you'll know what is my post about and relate.

Everything is so clear and simple. Not even a bit complex at all! Look, once you make a mistakes, just apologise and STOP doing it again?! Then soon it'll be forgotten as time goes by!
The only reason that the whole seem to be rather complex and predicament was one trying to defend and speak out for themselves and if they can't convince you, they'll try to confuse you. Ultimately was to place all fault with you.

That was what really happened though I did not mention out the whole details. So, this kind of people whom you've been for most like 6 years, when sort of stuff happened, they score it with you and make you guilty but realising you aint in any fault. Known for 6 years, unrepentent for 6 years! They commit the first mistake though they feel bad about it, they do it again.

I should have specially said, this kind of people will never remember even those little things you've done for them, they only remembered vividly what are the things they have did for you. More elaborated example, Monetary issues! They are so obssessed with money that will never forget the one that never loan them, or how costly they spent willingly and eventually complained about it!

It is so wicked in their mind that they are almost fully possessed with papers! Not kidding, they are very very extremely concern about cash, notes, bucks, anything to do with monetary. They can buy friends if they want to.

My theory of a friend isn't like that. Anyhow, quit bragging about it cause its contagious even to mention the name of that person. I don't want to be mind possessed by money! SO QUIT IT.

To all my other friends, be it that I'm the second one doing sort of stuff again. The second one shows how failure she is in being a friend. Not to mention the pleasant she done cause it gonna do with MONEY AGAIN! In my life, she is completely forgotten, erase, delete whatever you can think of. I really badly need that jinx out of my L.I.F.E

And for you guys information, she deleted me from facebook and claimed that I do not want to contact her? WHAT THE? Seriously, somebody recommand her to some mental speciallist or seek for help! She rotten in her mind even delusion and hallucinating stuff. Whatever, maybe just let her mind rot I don't care. If I ever get a chance to talk to her again, I have 3 letters for her. GND.

2010-06-09T02:13:00.003+08:00

Pardon me for my outrageous act! Here goes my blog rotting it's way. Anyway, quick update on what I've did recently. Waiting for my Lasalle college to reopen of course! Taken some tests realizing I don't even need it! Okay! Holiday now as my kindergarden is having their June break! That's why! Vocal got slightly better but still sounds utter nasty than before! Oh great! Another thing that filled me anguish dissatisfactory is, my lap top actually break down! Due to some improper shuts down and crashs in my hard disk! So I'm having quite an unpleasant time to get connected! Oww! Really Pissed! My dad railed at me for that issue and I always have this insouciance behaviour after committing something wrong. I did not??! I believe?!

That's a never ending story if I persist on. Shall h
get a quick update soon again?

I will never make it a short-lived passion if it's you.
Lalalalala!

2010-05-05T20:38:00.000+08:00

2010-05-05T20:18:00.003+08:00

I realised I will only update when I wasn't feeling good.
If it is all about me here then well, I'm sorry.

I ain't feeling pissed now but dearly pissed! Good gracious! Any idea to relieve? I want to go out now! But got work tomorrow! Maybe I should take bus to CCK. :/

Darn! I'm feeling so darn about this ultimate itinerary. Darndarndarn! Okay yes! It really gets my adrenalin going now. No point bother if it aint negotiable. :*
Really don't know what to do. All I can do now is blank, ponder about how is it like in there? What is going to happen? EHHH..I really don't like this feeling but there's nothing I can do about it! It's a pretty good topic to be chagrinning about!

Marking books, looking into notes, plan for the next lesson and other sort of stuff you can imagine.

Whatever really, don't want to make a fuss out of it. I'll pretend I don't know a shit and turn in early for tomorrow.

2010-05-03T16:00:00.001+08:00

2010-05-03T15:49:00.003+08:00

I've not been updating any for so dreadfully long! Pardon me as I was held up with my Lasalle stuff. Well, after all advices and contemplation, I decided to go Lasalle. Yes NAFA may be better but at least Lasalle provide the Degree training even from the very first year. I think its a good route for me to get prepared in advance.

Next, I'm still teaching at my house area PAP Blk 110. Talk about kids! I'm already backing out from them, angels look with devils mind. Ouch!

I've got so many things to do! I have to take my IELTS that cost 300 bucks simply! I'll be blogging usual from now on I hope. All I have to do now is wait for August and SCHOOL STARTS! I'm all depending on myself now. Shall share some of my portfolio I did few days back. Okay! Byebye!

Teacher Janise!

2010-03-13T01:28:00.002+08:00

Okay, Jo-kim is the one from the front of second row, the Chinese boy. The very right side front is Javier. He is so naughty! Haha They are K2 DURIAN
Alright! They are K2 MANGO! I'm wearing the Mango shirt! HAHA! Emerson is the most outstanding boy! Haha! Just beside me, spot him? Adorable uh?!

K2-Mango & Durian

2010-03-13T01:06:00.002+08:00

Everybody! I'm here to share my first day back to Kindergarden! Alright! I must say that the children nowadays are real smart! They know words like exquisite and furious which shocked me! I was taught that back in Primary schools! The way I talked to them, I almost forgot they are only 6 until when I use words like major, emperor and retrieve. They are really cute alright! Okay so here is how I began my day.

Morning classes
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I took their temperatures and attendance, checked through they hands and mouth. We are very concerned about the HFMD-Hand Foot Mouth Disease. They may speak behave and observe unlike their age but after all, they body immune system aint that strong.
After I took their attendance, I brought them to wash their hands. Tell them stories like Jack and the beanstalk and Sasha visits the museum. However, I find it hard to get them settle down.
They are seriously adorable! When I say...K2 MANGO! They'll replied, Yes Teacher Janise! Haha! That is so cute!
Okay! After stories telling, I brought them for their snacks time and soon, we carry on our lesson. I'm good in remembering names. One of the pupil I favored most is Emerson! Not biased but he left deepest impression!
Later I refresh them what they had studied before and gave them time for drawing. They love drawing! Some of the pupils are so mischievous like Adrian and Willey! But I still loves them!
Go through worksheets, returned folders and reminding them to bring it back when school reopens and here I end my class with K2 MANGO.

Afternoon classes
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They are few particular pupils that I remember vividly. Okay, I did the same thing with them. This time, K2 DURIAN have more Malays and Indian pupils. They are still so adorable. This time, I favored Jochime. His name is weird but is pronounce as Jo-kim. He is adorable! However they did not behave like the previous class but I LOVE THEM! They made teaching fun!
I played Simon says with them and they got so enthusiastic about it.
Finally ending the day, felt so bad as I'm going to part with them for 1 week! They'll be having their holidays! Children...

Anyway! There are pictures to show you guys! They are really adorable! HAHA!

2010-03-08T17:04:00.001+08:00

Dear Heavenly father! Please watch over me!! HELP ME!!

2010-03-07T21:00:00.006+08:00

This dance by Hyo Yeon WAS AWESOME! I really admire people who can sing and dance. I want to be like her! Aiming, targeting!
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So! I'm here blogging again, realising how slothful I am for these few days.
It's been quite a routine lately, doing the same stuff over and over again.
I've got plenty of boredom to fuss about! Boredom is just a pain in my neck!
My pay is out and is pathetic little ;( Good thing I'm no longer working for him.
Probably going to collect my certificate tomorrow.

ANYONE!? PLEASE ASK ME OUT! I HATE TO SPEND EVERY OF MY SECONDS WITH BOREDOM. A DAY SEEM TO BE DREADFULLY LONG!

2010-03-04T00:44:00.000+08:00

2010-03-03T17:34:00.003+08:00

EVERYDAY IS AS BORED AS ALWAYS! NO WORK NO MONEY! NO MONEY NO FUN! I'm SICK SICK SICK SICK SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THESE! Have to plan for my itinerary, keep finding stuff to keep me busy with! MOST IMPORTANTLY IS I'M NOT PAID! Is there anything more worst than these!
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Sometimes in life, you've got to make a decision, a choice to move on. However, time will abandon you, even before you got the time to make a choice. How cruel is this?
Well, that's the way it is in life. Ain't no fair or unfair.
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I was viewing some blogs and I realised that it is so blissful to have someone you love with you. I don't know why, I felt the pain within. Indescribable pain. Imagine the one you love telling you sort of stuff like "Let's remain as friends" Seriously, its a dilemma I wouldn't dare to face.
Apparantly, this simple sentence does not seem to be harsh. However, this simple sentence comply different of meanings.
It means that you could never return, like what it was before. IT'S OVER.
How harsh does this sounds? Might leave an indelible memory somehow. I think.
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THE END doesn't sound appealing too uh? That's THE END of blah blah blah.
That's THE END of this world?
THE END of my post (: Aww..It's quite scary I find it. :/

2010-03-02T02:02:00.007+08:00

OIIII! SEE CHIOBU UHHHH??! ;(

He's trying so hard to ACT CUTE...

Okay! I look much more slim in person! Any idea how to get rid of baby fats?! Desperately!

Cut my fringe and hair! ;( Friends keep fuss about it.

I WANT TO RE-DYE MY HAIR YOU KNOW!

Do I look like chinese? I got this feeling I look like malay...in this picture

Chinese! yes (: I am a HUA REN!

This is HAKIM! and...

I just love to snapshot him! Sick..arghhhh

I had the MEGA MAC! WOW! Damn bloated!

Tell me I look like chinese...please..

Very long ago..

I can't wink the other side!

Two ass retard!

She look like a kitten in this picture! HAHAHA

The day I finally graduated from SECONDARY! No more uniforms! No more black hair! No more pin-ups! Friggin rules!

Shall upload more pictures tomorrow! Shiyu is so tired! I want to have steak for every of my lunch!

2010-03-02T01:23:00.003+08:00

I've not been blogging cause I'm just so lazy! Okay, I shall redeem myself. So here is my itinerary of the day. Met up with Stephanie, chatted and headed home.
I realised the difference in the past and now. Friends having their own life, busy with their own stuff. Things just isn't the same as the past, I just miss those days.
I've quit my job lately, finding ways to kill boredom. Ideas?
Haven't been L4D for dreadfully long, perhaps this Saturday! I'm definitely going to L4D and beat my boyfriend down! Yeah! Oh! Suddenly recalled a funniest story told by STEPHANIE! Haha!
She said she hopes to see the MP for an errand, also to write a letter to Sony Erricson to get a new phone as she is in a predicament of bankrupt! Should be effective uh steph..
Alright! I'm meeting her tomorrow and SHOP SHOP SHOP but also new job hunt!
Five more days to BOOK OUT DAY! Guess it means ROT AT HOME FOR THESE DAYS! *sigh
Pictures time!

2010-02-24T02:31:00.002+08:00

I realised that I've not update any of my latest pictures so far, perhaps I'll just update this first.
Wasn't in real good mood today as I get extremely bored! And was planning my itinerary of the day that I got real pissed off! I'm so going to change my job. Bad Boss, low pay and frigging long working hours! I'm sick of it!

Lately I just notice something again! Let it be. Honestly, I do not have any freaking bad intentions to bring the whole thing up or leave a phenomenon. I'm starting to feel a little nuisance about it, this is not the way I should behave! I've always have good strategy dealing sorts of stuff. My strategy is, not to give a fugging damn care about it.
What is wrong with me now?! I can't tolerate any longer as its really getting on my nerve. Besides, I'm concern about it as it wasn't just anyone. Anyone understand my feeling now? Let me share with you. I AM FREAKING PISSED AND PARANOID.
I did not do anything to deserve it. For those who understand me, I get along with people well so the chances for anyone to hate me stands 1%.

Ever heard of these?

He that is jealous is not in love.

The lovesick, the betrayed, and the jealous all smell alike.

Jealousy is cruel as the grave: the coals thereof are coals of fire.

Guard your roving thoughts with a jealous care, for speech is but the dialer of thoughts, and every fool can plainly read in your words what is the hour of your thoughts.

It always happen in life that there are people who just want to knock you down or even thrashes you like a weak and helpless ant. Because jealousy can major everything, jealousy can drives a person to be nasty and doing things that nobody would thought of it. It's human nature. A person with jealous mind often are treacherous and cunning, they will always have great plan to obtain their targets. Because they're cunning, motives and targets would not be obscured and because they're jealous, they fought in deception behave treacherously.

What is the gain? What is the reward? What is to be known?
Anyway, I love this song.

Hey, slow it down
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah, I'm afraid
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
I would give myself away
(Ooh) Once upon a time
I didn't give a damn
But now here we are
So whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it's plain to see
That baby you're beautiful
And there's nothing wrong with you
It's me – I'm a freak
But thanks for lovin' me
Cause you're doing it perfectly

There might have been a time
When I would let you step away
I wouldn't even try but I think
You could save my life

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don't give up on me
I won't let you down
No, I won't let you down

So
Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
(Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

2010-02-22T00:31:00.006+08:00

Steph drew this and it resemble like? TOTALLY I LAUGH MY SHIT OUT IF IT! HAHA

What a boring day! I don't know what should I do besides working! No work means no LIFE! No LIFE means BORING! Was alone at my house staircase for awhile, pondering over some matters. Couples always likes to compare themselves with other couples and why? It is so important that the effort for your boyfriend/girlfriend must return back to you?

Alright I don't know what I'm talking about now but my point is to exert every effort in a relationship, all I hope for is getting reciprocated. Is that how everyone felt? I'm just affirming my point.

I think probably I look like one rubbish clollector or something, I always throw this and that. Baby ask me to throw that away or should I just return? I don't know, wasn't mine initially. That's why I'm saying I'm like a rubbish collector! Always helping him throwing junks. WHY ME? Bizarre behavior!

I'm extremely bored!

2010-02-18T00:48:00.003+08:00

There's nothing fair in this world, lord is not going to be nice to beings that only lived once in a lifetime. There are obstacles in my life and I always tried very hard to solve it all by myself. I have to think, answer and even finding out truth all by myself. It's always about me counter sorts of stuff, alone.

Thanks Shirley for telling me some important news. But also, I wish to say, I did not drag my boyfriend in I hope you'll do the same. I know you are reading this.

For these 7 months, there's always some presence which I do not wish to state. From the start till now, nothing change. When you intended to change something or planned some shit, it won't always turn out the way you want. It's best not to "try" or "intend" to make some changes or difference, it won't work out. Having myself to deal with some shit stuff wasn't typically hard.

All I can say is, you blew it all yourself. Don't try to do anything to salvage, I don't give second chance. You SHOULD KNOW ME WELL. I think I've been too nice to you that you never did take my words for real. Whatever, really.

I've stopped working for these few days. Guys ask me out!!

2010-02-14T05:49:00.002+08:00

Good day everyone! I'm sure everybody know that Valentine's day fall on the first day of Chinese New Year! Hope in this year, there would be bliss and joy. Happy Valentine's Day and Chinese New Year to everyone!

Last year, there are unfortunates but also pleasant news. I can say that last year went pretty smooth for me. Well this year, several impacts I received. Not to mention the humiliation, berating and the criticizing. There are weird people living in this world through my acknowledgment after I counter that issues. But anyway, she no longer link me and had her link changed. So guess its all over? I am still having this bad premonition somehow.

I am not very good in putting my words across verbally, so whenever I feel this indescribable thoughts, I write it out. When I do not have any bad intention, people tends take advantage of me, saying all my bad or even being hostile towards me. I really am clueless about it.

I guess is really over? All the unsatisfactory? I hope!

To think about the number of roses I received the year before and before, was 18! Purple and pink! This year! None. Not feeling disappointed, not trying to complain but this year I received something even more special than roses. It was something that do not cost much but I can see all the effort and I quite like it. My boyfriend bought me my favorite STITCH! 5 STITCH! A bottle of red seeds. What is the definition of the red seed? But he filled one third of the bottle. I asked him why not the whole bottle and he replied

"cause it shows that my love for you is endless."

I was like "WAHHHHH" Since when he became so analogy and sweet? Definitely hard to pick so many of these seeds. I have counted it, he total picked 198 of them. Best present ever!
I got him a Fred Perry Flip wallet on that day of their new arrival for the spring season. I was suppose to meet him as I was OFF on Tuesday. Then I told him to wait awhile and I cabbed to Cineleisure to get the wallet around 5 and cabbed back to meet him at 6. Had never been so rush before!

Anyway, I am tired now. Shall update again when I am free as a workaholic, I am preoccupied by my job most of the days. Since long when I blog!

2010-02-08T12:56:00.002+08:00

I think he figuring how to teleport into the game! ;(
Everyone calls it infatuation, I call it platonic.

2010-02-08T12:36:00.003+08:00

Terrible terrible! I accidentally cleared all links. For those who changed links, tag me again. I'll link you guys up as soon as possible (: I can finally take a break! I'm extremely worn out! Will be heading down to TOWN later on. Brought along my "bags carrier". Things got slightly better when you force yourself not to think about it. I really did forget about it, things are different now. Approaching our 7th months and our FIRST Valentine and our FIRST Chinese New Year! It overwhelmed me when I think about all the FIRST and time really flies in a blink of an eye. Guess what did I got for him? I make chocolates and bought a FP wallet! (: I was thinking of a zara shoe initially. I'm using his phone now, so in case I damage this phone, I trade my phone for a HTC phone. JUST IN CASE! (:
Been working like hell lately and getting those pathetic little bucks! I can't survive with such a low pay! JTZH! I want more pay!
Probably Saturday going to watch MY EX! WHOO! Location not yet decide.
Okay! That's about it!

2010-01-28T16:38:00.004+08:00

Please click on to the picture for a

better view and info!

So did I just like misunderstood her or did my computer and tag board just got bugged?! Some people are so weird! AND HELLO?!
Icyshir said : den ask your bf whether he want to burn his son.

The fugging imitate said : The son i mean is his cock.and you people think is his "son".LMAO.I pity the one who you are blaming

Senseless. I think she got mixed up with using names. I do not assume as I've mentioned as everyone can see clearly, who is the immature one and the pathetic one. Like as if she is not a teenager? Some old wisdom senior? Like fug. Don't brag your rubbish here. Spamming people isn't immature, using somebody names neither is immature. Freedom of speech. I wonder how are you taught. You have no courtesy, you make no sense, you have no basic etiquette, you insulted my name, you make yourself like a fool and lastly, you make me laughed with every of your vinegar notes.

I find it amusing when you talk about wise. Adding on to fantastic on how you criticized us. Don't just words it out, don't you find yourself not making any sense? " Stupid people doing stupid stuff" Like whatever I think while saying us could you like think about what are you DOING?! Whatever you just said was like arrowing to YOU! Damn! Only act like a wise talker, Brag nonsense. You are THE WORLD MAJOR MAJOR MAJOR MAJOR LOSER!!! HAHAHAH! But really..WHATEVER..

2010-01-24T17:39:00.004+08:00

I may not be like an expertise to judge or having any psychic powers to know. I'm just that normal and not having capabilities to do any unusual stuff or having any supernatural abilities. Just a helpless mankind. I was born with brain, with millions billions of brain neurons, able to think, conclude, observe and decide.
I just don't understand why there are people taking me like an Idiot or someone born yesterday, giving all fake information and tried to counterfeit through. Attempted in deception just to make me feel

worse?

Is that your motive? Or your motive was just to

get back what

you want?

In this way? If it is, I feel sorry for you. Using my name! spouting in MY TAG BOARD, it was alright. Making up ridiculous stories like..you are expecting?!

That's absurd and senseless! So how old is your foetus now? 6 months? Deliver soon uh? How come nobody realise? Cause your tummy isn't fugging big to the extend of 6 months! Don't crap by saying aborted.

SO ABORTED WHY IS IT MY

FUGGING PROBLEM? (: By the way, I'm glad that I studied biology.

This message is to you.

I don't know what kind of person you are, or

what purpose

you have. We are so in different world.

Whether you

expecting or not, I think it is also not my

problem. Why

not you tell him yourself?
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In this world, there are nonsense, and truth being obscured. It only matter you believe or not. To me, if it makes sense, I do believe. But something that has nothing to do with me, why do I fugging care about it. So I ignored and choose not to care or believe. People can tell me thousands and millions, billions or even zillions stories to convince me, I don't believe it so nothing could change.

There's a saying "For those who believe, no proof is necessary. For those who don`t

believe, no proof is possible"
I remember this vividly.

2010-01-15T02:10:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow! Anticipating! I've submitted my admission list yesterday and Singapore Polytechnic was my first choice. However, there are some course I'm rather interested in Nanyang Polytechnic. I can't wait for the result of which campus I'll be posted to!

I've quit Biotherm! Not my working environment. Should I take Interior Design? I'm really not sure. I would like to join the dance troop if I manage to get in their choreography. But I'll be so preoccupied that I might neglect baby. *Ouch! hard decision*

Valentine Day is one month less away, I wonder what I'll get this year. For this two years, I had been receiving roses and not the one to be mention last. It was such a disastrous! Ever receive a gift and it was claimed back before? Well, all I can say is back out loser! Sort of sour grape and "you'll get nothing if I can't have the sweet" Hope I won't meet this kind of people again.

I wanted to get Fred Perry for baby but he say don't go for brands. Oh well, some ten bucks shirt then. HAH! I'm going make dark chocolates then! (:

2010-01-12T01:14:00.006+08:00

This is really a miracle! I did not complete my O level English paper but still, I PASSED!
Isn't it a miracle?! Though I did not do very well! But at least effort not gone to waste.
My vivid memories, people who gone through this journey with me, people who encourages
me, close ones showing the tolerance and understanding. I couldn't thank them enough for all
they've did for me. I remembered the day of my result in year 2008, well it was remarkable! HAH! Sat there wait for some disappointing results and responding to some show-offs. This year is not the same! Things have changed! Including my life! People who gave me hope and was the hope I continued moving on but then, fail me again. I know clearly I did it for who but disappointing was not for myself. How gullible was that! So then, I strive harder than before, for myself! Friends was there, close ones and love ones. I can't be anymore grateful to have them with me. There will be! Another wonderful day after all the gloomy days.
Sandy, Kaiying, Jingying, Jyothi, Zhao yue and Eudy was there for my result. I PASSED!
Thank you guys for being there!

Stephanie, Enpei, Jiabao and many more! Thank you for showing the most concern all this while! Not forgetting, Pui bong baby! He's there no matter what. And he will be from now on and whenever my life journey, he will be there to share every of what I've been through.

Short brief of today

2pm awaiting for GCE 'O' Level results
Went home changed
Town with Sandy, Kaiying, Zhaoyue
Shopped
Meet Zhaoyue's boyfriend
Shop again
Dinner
HOME

I've bought some new clothes! Yeah! AND I DON'T FEEL LIKE WORKING IN BIOTHERM! I'm so going to quit! There's pictures to be upload tomorrow (: Goodnight everyone!

2010-01-10T22:46:00.003+08:00

Everyone know! Is tomorrow! I really don't know what to do! How I should start to move from the moment I receive my results. I'm suppose to have a plan B, what if I don't? What is the other alternative? I really would like to know. It's all about the precious time wasted! I know clearly what's going to happen, how my result would be. I am clear of that. Anyway, I wish all my others friends all the best! God bless me!

2010-01-06T03:01:00.003+08:00

Good news to share! Exciting news! I signed up for an Ebay account and Paypal account.
Then! I bought some stuff using my dad's Visa!
I wonder how I'm going to die this time round. LMAO!
That is so breath-taking! You know how it feels like when you are about to click on to PURCHASE?!
I was hesitating, then I don't know was it my fingers or my mind, I CLICKED ON THE MOUSE!!! And here we go, I've bought it with my dad's card.
Damn! It's the second time I swiped his card easily!
Good to have a Visa! (: The first time is I bought the Norton Anti-Virus from net and guess what?
Over HUNDRED BUCKS ALRIGHT! Well, that scolding was quite bad.
And now, over ebay for some stuff. I'm so busted this time round.
Why can't I always control my fingers from clicking the LEFT CLICK!!!
Well, gladly I got what I want and sadly I've got to face the music (:
Dear dear dear~ I just love the way I hit it when things went by! Just click it with no hesitation! WELL DONE! GOOD NIGHT! I DON'T WANT TO SEE THE MOUSE!

2010-01-04T01:46:00.003+08:00

I Know,that my love for you is real.

It's something true, that we do, just something natural, that i feel.

When you walk in the room, when you're near I feel my heart skip a beat and the whole world dissapears

And there's just you and me

Falling head over feet, lets take a chance together

I know I know I know I know, we gonna make it cause no one else can make me feel the way that you do.

I promise you I know I know I know I know, we gonna get there today, tomorrow, and forever we will stay true

I promise you

They say that we're just too young to know

But I'm sure heart and soul that I'm never letting you go

When its right its right and this is it

Cause im walking on air every single time that we kiss

You make the angels sing

You give that songbird wings

You make everything better.

I know I know I know I know, we gonna make it

Cause no one else can make me feel the way that you do.

I promise you

I know I know I know I know, we gonna get there
today, tomorrow, and forever we will stay true

I promise I'll never let you down, I'll always hear you out

There is nothing you can not confide

You listen when i speak

You make me knees go weak

And i just want you by my side

I know I know I know I know, we gonna make it

Cause no one else can make me feel the way that you do.

I promise you

I know I know I know I know, we gonna get there

Today, tomorrow, and forever we will stay true

I promise you

We're gonna make it

I promise you
Yeah, yeah, yeah

I promise you

2010-01-02T18:30:00.004+08:00

I don't like to repeat myself. Some people are just that paranoid, don't get what you really want, but I perceived you having alot of dissatisfactory with me!

TO THE ONE MAKING A FUSS OVER MY TAGBOARD- do you really think I don't know you deliberately tag or just happen to pass by?

You don't seem to move on despite you having a boyfriend now? So what is your problem here? There are such things call IP Address in case you don't know. Just to let ya know, I'm not assuming your identity but having clear evidence and conclusion. So where do stand a chance of winning this way?

2010-01-01T22:41:00.002+08:00

My colleague, Yuanyuan.

So what if you hate me? So?

2010-01-01T03:20:00.002+08:00

Would you talk nicely to the person you hate? Maybe? Sometimes things are just a little too obvious to be notice of. I thought you are good person. The next day I totally disagree with my thoughts. Why being so nice and approach by berating? I don't think I did anything wrong, all I know was just to be friendly if that's wrong. It'll be awkward if exposed ain't it? I know, but I choose not to let it out. Seriously if there's any issues, bring it up somewhere? Can't you see I show no hostile towards you? And yes, you are unpredictable.

2009-12-30T17:46:00.006+08:00

Mine is pink! His is green! LOL
Vivo

Super boring working alone.

This looks funny! LOL

Shiyu loves you ;D

Cannot multi-task...Boring

Hello! This is my Charcoal boy!

Act cool again.

During his POP

Let's play spot him!
4th row from left the second one.

This is real funny! Should video it down. LOL Baby shy shy!

HAHAHA LMAO

Nude lipstick! Super nude!

2009-12-30T15:02:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, when you did nothing wrong yet the fault all lies with you and you got no clue of how and why. That is just the way it is in life. You can be hated or liked doesn't matter if there is any reason provided. It's alright with me, choosed to be hated or liked is not within any of my choice or decision. Likewise, you can hate somebody or like somebody depends on what he or she have done. And sometimes, being affable is not going to bring you anywhere. In a lucid state of mind, every word I perceived there are abundance of dissatisfactory. Not considering the insolent nature that filled me with comtemptuous and disdain but the reason I was subjected with fault. There's something I hate it alot is being bombarded with intolerable affront. Whatever it is, ruined my day and my mood.

I substituted my daily meals with only 3 apples a day. To say it in fully, for couple of days I did not take in any rice at all. Just water and apples. Wonder how long can I resist myself from eating ToriQ! Without any intake of rice sure makes me feel weak! There are pictures to upload but maybe later. I want to clean up my room first.

2009-12-28T01:16:00.003+08:00

Hey guys! I'll be shifting to either 313 @ Somerset or Far East. I've got one good thing to share about 313! Undefined reasons, the air-condition for my shop at basement was freezing cold! I do not know why but the centralize setting was 25 degree Celsius. But I could not stand the coldness, I called up and reasoned. Guys came down to check out the problem but it was still unresolved even on the second day I work over there. They took the temperature over there and guess what? It was 14.5 degree Celsius! I'm going to fall sick! The second day slightly better, 18.
Darn! What is wrong with my shop!? Gladly, some other shop don't even got an air-con! They called up to complain too warm while I complained too COLD! I've got the 3 keys! Somerset, Far East and Vivo! I took a cab home today instead as it was hell late! Going for my slumber now. Shall update again if I'm free.

2009-12-08T00:58:00.003+08:00

I'm enjoying my OFF DAY today, but there's more rubbish awaiting tomorrow. That's sad! Baby is going to pass out on this Saturday. Happily happy! But no idea if I'm able to attend as I've got to work. Seriously, my pay is too little for me to survive. I think I'm changing my work. Should I? I'm sort of superficial type, this job is hard for me to make a living. Think I give a good thought about it. Anyway, I was blog hopping just now. Too bored! Getting my lens next week and gorgeous shoes! Heels! Then baby will have to piggyback me home as I always have blister on my heel. I'm just nice for his training. His field pack is very heavy! So he'll be slouching 2 years later. Working alone again tomorrow! It's tiring when boss keeps calling up and pushing me. Those pressures and more makes me feel so sick and tired, even more reluctant to continue working. Long working hours yet, pay is little. Anyway, going to wash up and sleep. Morning 11 opening shop and work till 10 at Vivo! Tiring.

2009-12-04T13:53:00.009+08:00

Yesterday

Wednesday

During my birthday

I took my off-day to rest at home. Am seriously sick, every morning I found myself mute and headache. Coughing real bad with phlegm! Was suppose to work at my new place, Somerset 313 shopping mall. But I wasn't well till now. So declared off and rest a bit.

Something ridiculous happened yesterday. I was serving customer as usual, then this guy walked in and started towards the guy's area. I thought that he's going to try on the clothes or what but sadly no. He introduced himself to me and asked for number. I immediately went speechless! I'm working obviously, it's inconvenient. If you guys are free, drop by to 313 @ Somerset B1-25 to look for me.

Still waiting for baby to come back, outfield for a week already! Waiting waiting.

2009-11-30T00:44:00.003+08:00

Hey everyone! Thank you so much for those who remembered my not important day! *Laugh*
Lately, been working over at Vivo City. For those who din't see me for thousand and million years, escalate to the second floor and the shop beside Secret Recipe; Mary Jane. Look for me there alright! I've been eating good stuff but also expensive stuff, unfortunately I din't put on any weight! Today sales was bad! I suppose there were throngs around my place during SUNDAY! I'm curious why there isn't.
Well well, my birthday celebration wasn't phenomenon but was extraordinary this year compared to previous that I did not even wanted to celebrate it either. I'm really glad that I have some wonderful friends around- Enpei, Sijun, AhJ. Differently, I celebrated it together with my friends, family and baby of course! Enpei's effort is truly appreciated and finally paid off this year. Thank you so much! She bought me a watch cost over hundred dollar. Indeed, I'm very important to her! HA! And forgetting, my one and only boyfriend, Lim Kei Siao. HAHAHHA! Baby build a bear for me, though it wasn't stitch, but still I love it. I love all my presents! Dearest and baby, thank you so much! You guys made Nov 28 09 a very special day.
Shall post some of my pictures tomorrow if I got the time, my boss hand me the key! I gotta open the shop tomorrow. See how much he trusted me! (Happily jumping around)
Oh! AND ONE LAST THING! I almost got exposed. My dad smell cigarettes when I walked pass him. That was close! I hope that the letter he'll never get to find out! GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!!!

2009-11-25T00:16:00.004+08:00

2009-11-25T00:10:00.002+08:00

I'm currently taking 2 jobs now. One at ARTBOX, the other is MaryJane. I'll be training first at VIVO. The pay is so pathetic little! I think I cannot survive for every months! Having puffy swollen eyes lately! Must be my contact lens! Not going to wear it yet!
Tomorrow working at VIVO! First day! (: Hohoho
I really got no free time! Sorry friends! 7 days in a week occupied by both of my jobs and boyfriend. Darn! Wish I can have at least a day off to accompany my boyfriend.
Anyway, not going to post much. Eyes hurting real bad.
I'll be at the second floor, shop name is MaryJane. Look for me if happen to pass by.

2009-11-24T02:24:00.006+08:00

HAHAHA SO FUNNY!

Baby's no skill in taking photo!

This cap is so..squarish~

All these pictures are taking on Monday. His place.

LOL! Kinda funny and cute uh?

Saturday

The picture quality is so bad! Sorry!

Act cute...

Baby, don't laugh like that! So funny!

I'm not closing my eyes right?

He don't want to take with me!

I'm having sore-eye. Sorry for poor picture quality. In bus, dim light.

Forget when

That's the filter! Saw the tar? Cool ain't it?
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Friday?

HAHAHA! THIS IS SO FUNNY!

I looked super weird! Lazy to rotate pictures

I don't know where I'm looking but never mind. Its funny I thought.

2009-11-24T01:22:00.005+08:00

SHIYU IS VERY VERY FRUSTRATED WITH SOME PATHETIC MORONS SERVING SOME BRANCHES! *No offence!
You know what? My birthday is just few days away! You could even count with your 10 FINGERS! But some totally pathetic losers just so pathetic earning filthy money AND thought that it was reputable! That's bullshit! You people just so filthy poor! Making filthy money! Against your self-conscience! LOSER! If I'm a year away from 18, I would throw you that 30 bucks on your face! But it was just a few days away, claiming you are doing some good deed? You have no idea what would be the outcome, you just bloody irritating see money as one and only!
I'm going court this time round! *FUG UP*
*Sorry for vulgarities and offensive details but personal issues*

I'm going to slap them with my IC next month. Irritating morons! Fug up hag and pathetic useless junks! Hundred bucks! My 2 days pay! *fug all of you! all 5 pathetic loser!* All you can do is submission and taking down information? Like you people! There's no contribution to the society! Please just Fug OFF! from this world! Singapore needs more capable men rather than people like you! Don't serve the community with the right attitude! All you people are capable of is seeing those money! You people don't really want to help in reducing under-age ******* but you do it for the money! Filthy useless! I really despise people like you. I LOOK DOWN ON YOU! SUCKERS!
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Anyway, last Saturday was my first day of work actually. I ended work around 10.30pm after cleaning the shop and shutting the gates. What actually make my day was baby waited for me alone for 4 hours at town area. That was really sweet! I got caught on that day anyway.
We bus home and met up with YL, Edwin and BS. Short chat and started home. Went over his house for awhile cause my bladder needs to and he walked me home after that. It's like so near! I reach home in 5 minutes time! But still, I'm really moved.
On Sunday, I went to AMK hub to help out as Julie was working alone. We break the record! We are so good working partners! Trained back, meet up with them again. Went over baby's house to watch the Friday 13th! That was gruesome and gross. He walked me home and that's all for that day (:
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Today! Not working but went over to baby's house. Actually I wanted to play PS2 but he's tired and unwilling to play with me. So I dropped the idea. Headed over Plaza and printed one 4R picture and two 3R picture.

I asked him where will he stick them on and he replied something I blanked for 3 seconds and starts giving him a good scolding.
He said his going to put it in front of the car. I was like...Car? Then I realize it was those "cars" with coffin that drive to crematorium! That's was so turn off.
But he framed the 4R picture and placed it on his desk and the other 2 he brought it back camp. His back is really heavy! Felt like carrying myself around.
Monday blue....

2009-11-20T13:20:00.003+08:00

I jut received a call asking me to work on Saturday and Sunday. Means, no more quality time together. You got to sacrifirce something in life for the better in future aint it?
Anyway, Saturday work starts from 12pm all the way! to 10pm at ION. Geez! I smell LACTIC ACID in my muscle! *Laugh
Sunday work starts from 11am to 6 or 7pm also at ION. That's alright. Still got plenty of time to meet him.
Hopefully, I will have time to update a little.
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I always believed the first sense and thought towards a matter is always true and accurate. Be it that I'm over-sensative or what. But I don't let my thoughts and imagination run wild. I don't just think, I feel! Towards the surrounding, towards the whole matter, I get better understanding of it. But I usually just leave the matter alone after I understood
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I'm not that sort of girl you might be thinking now. I seek no challenge towards you, all I want is frank and understanding rather misunderstanding and dislike. I'm not that hard to approach honestly. =D Besides, I'm nice to talk to (: Anytime (:
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Guess I've make my first move? Just 1 more day baby's booking out.

2009-11-20T02:10:00.005+08:00

I'm just so lazy! Lazy to change this, lazy to upload pictures to facebook and even lazy to update. I went for my training at ION Orchard ARTBOX. It was fun but the pay are low. One of my friend asked me to work for him in his mobile outlet. HIS THE BOSS! AMAZING! (:
Was contemplating whether should I go over to work for him. Think should discuss with baby first.
After my exhausting training, I bus over Bukit Panjang and travel over to Bukit Timah to meet up with EP, her boyfriend, SJ and AhJ. I think I said something and rather berating over some issue and she somehow read a note of sarcasm. I mean like, I'm just speaking the truth. Demoralizing you so you won't even hesitate the bid. But! She viewed it seriously as I bombarded her with criticism. Well, that's alright.

My dad's is going overseas again! His going over to China on December 14! Wonder what he'll get me this time round. The date when he board his flight is during baby's block leave as he had POP! AND AND! It's during our anniversary! That's a triple good news! He said coming over my house to stay over. Not decided yet but we shall see! (: FASTER POP! FASTER BOOK OUT!
I'm pining during the days he's not around!

I'm excitedly anticipating for my turning of 18! Wonder what LDT is getting for me! Maybe he'll wrap himself and deliver over my place. *Laugh!
I can't wait for my birthday! Extremely excited! After my birthday, I'm looking forward for his pass out parade then my Mom's birthday and finally! Favorite! Christmas!
Time really flies, in an blink of an eye.

The nourishment allow us to cling tightly together
How we nurture allow us to appreciate each other
With you around, there's nothing more I could ask for.

2009-11-19T00:45:00.002+08:00

Aww! I was sleeping just now! But Stephanie called and kick me off my slumber.
She needed my help but I din't help any. Steph, I'm so sorry.
Anyway, logged in to Facebook awhile ago. Is Facebook having problem?! Some things just changed when it is not suppose to. :/

Anyway, I've got training tomorrow at ION Orchard ARTBOX. Till 4 pm I guess. Wonder how things will turn out. Geez! I'm tired already. Turning in now. Shall update tomorrow morning! (:

YES! BABY'S BOOKING OUT ON SATURDAY! I LOVE SATURDAY!

2009-11-18T02:45:00.003+08:00

I'm extremely bored! I got my hair colored! YES! the color was rather similar to my previous color. Not black definitely, more to reddish-brown. Love it~
Was contemplating which color should I try out this year. Copper-brown? Anyway, stick to this color FIRST! I think I'm going down to Bugis for a walk, job hunting! Probably drop by Orchard area for a walk too. ALONE! YES! YOU CAN DO IT!
I did something real terrific! senseless! I log in to baby's Facebook. Just wondering how good I am in guessing! AND AND! I'M AWESOME!
But I found myself in a state of conscience-stricken. HOW COULD YOU DO THIS!?
That's what I asked myself. The saturated feeling of being rueful overwhelmed me. I immediately log out due to self-conscience. HAHA
So yesterday, baby requested me for something. 3 pictures of me! *Laugh! That's greedy!
After acceding his request, I decided to confess.
ME: Baby, I want to confess something to you.
Him: ....what?
He sounded so serious and I'm a little unsure that moment. But still, I confessed.
ME: I managed to log in to your Facebook. But I feel extremely blameworthy, so I log out immediately. Are you going to scold me? o.o?
I was not scolded by assured. (: I'm so glad I confessed! But his password was a piece of cake.
AND! I know what the password suppose to mean. *tsk*
But it doesn't affect me in any way! Cause we've moved on.

My Hamster is biting the cage! Contributed sound effect to my songs. Naughty fur ball! *Angry!
Well, shall update some picture tomorrow. I'm tired!

You are the one that I've been trying to reach
And you became my dream
A dream I won't give up to reach
YES! YOU!

2009-11-16T04:31:00.003+08:00

Oh my god! I'm still not in bed! It is 4.30 am now! MY MY MY! Chocolates sure makes me hyperventilate (: Anyway, was browsing through my past and realizing how ignorant and gullible I am in the past. Like 3 years back? It was a rapt of nonsense and ignorance! No wonder my dad likes to whine about my language. For not SPEAKING proper English with him.
I mean like, he gotta understand, all my friends are Chinese educated. You don't speak English with my friends either. It just feels weird and uneasy talking to them in English. I mustn't let other despise me! My Chinese is very fluent! My Chinese is improving everyday! (: Ain't it? My Chinese is good right? ; /
Don't demoralize me! :( I'll be devastated! But no matter how hard I try to improve my Chinese, it's still the same. Anyway, at least a way to communicate with my friends. Doesn't matter if my Chinese is horrible or what. My Singlish is even horrible. All thank to my friends. *Laugh!

Turning in now, so long~

2009-11-16T03:07:00.002+08:00

Lately! I've been turning in later and later! Doubt if I'm a nocturnal? Enough of craps, changing of plan for tomorrow (: Not going to Tampines. Going to Town with my Gerald brother! I can look for a job conveniently if I tag along (:
Not sure if Enpei is coming along, as you know, she seldom talk to strangers. ;(
I tried using baby's PSP to surf-net, I prefer using a laptop honestly. I'll get pissed off if I use a PSP. It took me dreadfully long just to type a sentence in Ebuddy. Geez!

I'm eating chocolates now, and again. HAH! Gerald's waking me up tomorrow morning! 10.30! Hopefully can update a bit before I leave.

Realizing that what I see in you is not what I saw with my eyes
But with my heart, soul and mind.
And it seems ever clearer than looking with those pair of eyes
Knowing that presently is felt from the inner but not see from the facade.

And that's truly you.

2009-11-15T02:13:00.002+08:00

Baby returned back to camp. Leaving me, all alone on the Saturday night. It's okay, it's alright. He'll make it up next week! (:
I was gaming all the way in his house, Facebook, ebuddy and y8. Triple boredom! Like I was doing the same thing over and over again! Anyway, I saw something rather interesting in Facebook over his place. So I brought up the issue and waiting for his response. I was still hesitating whether to hit it or not, after contemplating, I decided to just bring it up.
His reply and response really satisfy me (:
It's true, it all make sense. After all, you know that I place my trust with you. And you earned it.
I'm going to look for a job real soon! Hate the fact that I'm not doing anything daily and I'm pretty much not used to it! Next week going to retrieve something and also to return something. Well, its not my personal issue anyway but just to tag along.
I'm turning 18 on 28! Surprise surprise! No more field camp on 28 but on 30th!
Better can't celebrate it. Yes! Celebrating my birthday definitely with my dearest-Enpei and my important person-Boyfriend!
Lim kei siao! Everytime pretend don't know my birthday. This time I'm sure he get it all up in his head (:
They say movie with Mr Ong Yun Long! He picked a nice date! After the movie, they're going club. I don't like club!
Mr Lim, no club for you too if I'm not going. Hehehe
You're coming back home with me (:
I really wonder what will Teo SJ get me this year. Beside casting me with the LOOK and her horrible attitude last year that feels like giving her a full force that weigh 100 000kg and swing it to her face at 1000000000000000m/s right in the middle of her face. My birthday and I got a attitude present last year.
Teo SJ, I'm the birthday girl, whatever I say COUNTS! Cause that day! I'm bigger than you! HAHAHA! I think I shouldn't hold much expectation as its been the same for the pass few years. Nothing special. Mundane and routine.
Just take one step at a time, ... ...

2009-11-14T01:10:00.003+08:00

Look at the clock! I see numbers. HAH! Boredom day! My Dad bought Facial package for me. I don't like it. He said if I want to continue eating chocolates, I have to go. That is so..isn't fair! This is what he inherited to me! So, went for my first appointment today. Suck it suck it suck it..
The outcome! Like I was brutally whacked! My face is very red! :( I quickly returned home to hide my face! It was raining yet I'm having a red face; obviously there's no sun for me to tan.
Had 6 fish balls with some sour sauce today, a bowl of green bean paste and my dinner-congee.
I've got plenty of chocolates from JAPAN! Reward for my first appointment (:
I love chocolates! But my skin don't love it. Whenever I throw in chocolate into my mouth, next day I get a few break out. Hate it hate it hate it! It happened every time! That's why my friends always restricted me from eating, so the best resort was to eat it at home (: After the successful bid, remember to wipe my mouth clean (:
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Next Monday, accompany Pei to Tamp to retrieve back her stuff. Maybe a walk in Tamp mall or lunch there. Meeting her in the morning means! I have to get up early in the morning! For the sake of her, I sacrifice my rest.
Enpei, guilty not? HAHA! I'm so good right? Bet it!
8 and a half hours to go, baby is booking out. What prank am I going to play later on? Think think think! Oh! I know! I'll white powder his eyebrow while his sleeping. Not very fun, what is fun? Oh oh oh! I got this! Hide his lighter (: His one and only lighter which was mine initially..
Hah! Need a puff? No lighter to lit. He'll be frustrated! Lmao.
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Cause there is no guarantee
that this life is easy
When my world is falling apart
and there's no light to break out the dark
that's when I
I look at you.

2009-11-13T03:27:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow will be a better day! (: Should I go bowling tomorrow? I do not know how to bowl! Oh no! Besides, I'm scare of cold. I'll be shivering in a corner without knowing I guess. Mood swing away half of my day, the pain is unbearable! Am pissed off and paranoid with trivial stuff. Geez! I really hate PMS.

Anyway, there's a very absurd issue and reference from a friend of mine. Well, I do not know what exactly happened between his ex-girlfriend and him, but somehow I was dragged into the situation. Like! What the! I was subjected in and maligned! I do not know who is that girl but maybe she know my boyfriend or maybe she don't. But I hope that she can get things clear before accusing and maligning one. That guy is my friend! And! I never ever ride a bike to Malaysia before. If there's a need, I'll be glad to show you my passport. Though she mentioned my name and I got no clue how she know me. Whatever it is, I've got nothing to do with it. Even messages content are CLEAN! Besides! We haven contact for quite sometime! Why me being subjected! :(
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Told my boyfriend about it and he said: Don't care whatever she said.
I thought that girl is my boyfriend's friend. But he said no? Who is she anyway!?
Whatever now, I'm not going to care.
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Still got 1 more day baby is BOOKING OUT! for this 1 day! What should I do? Bowl? I've got house-chores every Saturday! For the sake of meeting him, I speedy clean, speedy mop, speedy vacuum, speedy change bed sheet and pillow casein! Then SPEEDILY budged my way through. Just to meet him! Imagine 3 to 4 hours of chores feeling physically drained but still, for him. *Laugh* Like what he always used to tell me, "for you". Heartfelt warming. (:
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Almost forgot! My sister's hamster hurt itself badly! I wonder what happened actually. Its leg just wear off leaving the flesh, bone visible. Aww! Poor little thing! My mom bought some sterilizer, and some spray specially for the wounds and cost around 30 BUCKS! Seriously, my hamsters life is so much more better than mine! Everything high quality! Anyway, hope that little thing can recover soon!

It is a real bliss, to have someone like you.
I chained you together with me.

2009-11-13T02:51:00.003+08:00

2009-11-12T16:44:00.000+08:00

Bored! Boring! Going out! (:

2009-11-12T02:19:00.002+08:00

I'm BACK EVERYONE! Well, I'm switching the television programs like nobody business . It is sooooo boring. I'm watching Cinemax, one of the SCV channels.
I'm pretty interested in Hollywood Star's and their Red Carpet's interview. Always waiting eagerly to see how Angelina Jolie would dress up in. She's gorgeous! Many people said that the Hot babe-Megan fox is the substitute for Angelina Jolie.
Megan Fox is HOT! But a substitute for Angelina Jolie...well I'm still not quite sure about that.
Angelina Jolie always turned up with stunning gowns. She's probably one of the most attractive lady during the Red Carpet. Next up, Miley Cyrus! She's still my favorite! Teen-pop sensation and a pretty awesome singer. Her Dad, Billy Ray Cyrus that acted in the Hannah Montana's Dad was her real dad.
Sometimes, I really think that she is so different. Her brother in Metro station, Dad's a singer and she's a teen-pop at the age of 17.
I know that it must have sounded funny, but I started to watch Hannah Montana roughly 2 years back. I think it's fine to watch some premiere Disney Channel shows. *Laugh* AND~ I LIKE IT.

There are couple for movies I really like in Cinemax. True Blood, more on Vampires and Satan prayer. The lost boys, Vampires movie again! Thrilling excitement when I watched movies like that. But I really love True Blood! Wonder if there are any outlet stores selling. I'm so going to get the First and Second series of it. I'm done watching all 12 episode of series 2. Just waiting to see who abducted Bill in the next episode. I've got a strong feeling is Eric! Evil man. There are also shape shifter! Awesome show! Strongly recommend for people who likes to watch Vampires or more on Satan prayers movie.

Guess I'll be going down to Bugis for a walk.
Today is a special day, our special day.

Every blithesome moments is significant to me.

2009-11-11T16:52:00.003+08:00

Gladly! No more uniforms! No more heavy backpack! No more waking up early in the morning! (:
I can't find an reason for me to brood about my results since its 2 months away.
I enjoy and have fun! (: Ain't going to bother other stuff.
Going to have my waffle later on, EP and SJ went to bugis! I'm so bored!
Find some day I'll go over to Bugis's Temple, wish a better health for baby.
There are so much more things waiting for me to accomplish! Should I return back to Starhub? I like the working enviroment there! And my leaders are all very nice people! (: Should I? Good pay, but office conflict can be equally bad.
Anyway, heading Timah now. Later~

2009-11-10T17:14:00.002+08:00

I always thought of another dimension in this world, another world that do not have day or night. I've been having dreams of reality. Dreaming of the scene and becoming real when awake.

Told my Dad about it but it doesn't help in anyways. I can hardly remember what I dreamt but when the scene in reality reflecting the dreams I had, all bits and pieces of puzzle fixed and bigger picture formed. It's so hard to describe here, I don't really experience it much till lately about a couple of times. It really freaked me out when I know what I dream becoming reality. Maybe some of you experience it before and has a name for this but I don't know really. All I know is like, travelling to the future? Although its not some major thing but rather, dreaming of something that's not very odd. The perplexing situation that I do not know how to define it. For example, I dreamt that I was doing something pretty routine like sitting on couch, then I dreamt that this particular person sat beside and starts eating peanuts! Those who know me...I hate peanuts! Then I said something like...go elsewhere to eat! The shells scattering everywhere! Then, that person got up and replied...Can't believe you're scare of...peanuts. And after some time, can't remember how long but guess was few days after that dream. AND IT WAS LIKE REPLAYING! This time, was my Dad sitting beside me. After he said what I dreamt of, it sounds very familiar! Like I heard it for the second time. Realising that it was what in my dream.

Freaked out though it wasn't really scary but having a chance to see and know something first before it came true was what freak me out.

I'm going to get a job soon, right after my last paper! AS! Somebody is driving me to a corner and I seriously am enduring! That person really pissed me off for treating me like..FUG! Yes I'm pissed off now! Every since that day till now! Paranoid than ever! First was my examination to fuss about! Next! YOU! YES I MEAN YOU! Left such a mess FOR ME TO CLEAR!

The first guy that I think was....well kinda like I don't know. I'm sure only Pei know what I meant and who left me such a big mess and kept me mentally drained even though my examination was ending. Seriously, take back whatever you want. I do not want it either. No important to me anyway. Was glad that I make this choice, what if I did not? And in future who knows what might happened? After 2 years if this thing happen? Gonna take back all stuff again? No way man! It's a wise choice that I made (: I voice out here so I can feel more at ease (:

4 more days, baby is booking out. Wondering how his feeling now (: I bought 2 toothbrush holder to keep out toothbrush! (: Better hygiene isn't it? I'll be real busy looking for jobs around town area. I'm in need of a job! BADLY! :(

2009-11-10T04:34:00.008+08:00

This photo taken on.........July I guess. Long time ago!

November!

Sijun and I

I never shoot in this angle before! LOL

Irritating wind!

Why do I look...so short?

Check out her face! LOL

Zhaoyue and I

October's photos

This is lojin's leg. OMG! IT'S TERRIBLE!

Side view..

Pei's birthday! HOORAY!

LOL Caixiang's bangs SUCKS! HAHAHA

Omg..I look pale...

Pei's cake

HAHAHHA!!! THIS IS FUNNY!

Act cool again. *shoke head*

Cool man!

HAHAHAHA!

Saw that?! My right eye!

Crying? NO! SORE EYE!

August's photos

My boyfriend made me played this! WITH OTHER PEOPLE!!!! BUT! I win (:

LOL Pikachu's owner. Why standing so...prostrate?

Say hello to my little fur ball! :)

During his birthday. He likes to give weird smile. -.-!

What face again! -.-!

July's photos

The view from flyers.

Notice this! Nice!

Baby's backview...act cool only. XD

The Chocolate I make for DT! Screwed up abit :/

2009-11-08T23:09:00.003+08:00

Finally! Last paper on Wednesday! :D I've been waiting eagerly! WAITING THIS DAY TO ARRIVE! Well, what I can say is..at least I can do whatever I yearn to NOW!

Friday 6th of Nov
Headed to town with ZY and LJ. Photo photo and photos! Not gonna upload any minute now, catch up soon. Saw pieces of what I want but while contemplating..I walked away from the shop. *SIGH!*
Then, forget about it. I remembered I said something..funny? In a way..unusual and it sounds...WEIRD!
Anyway, I spelled F-U-N overall for that day.

Saturday 7th Nov
It was a special day though, holding on to my anticipation in meeting him, but some things just...I changed my plan for that day. Studied alone under my block till around 10 pm plus and soon SJ joined for a short chat. Returned home lethargically and reluctantly! Why sick why sick?

Today
Headed over baby's house. This time! I rang the doorbell! FUG! I'll be extremely awkward if his parents get the door. But! gladly..he get it himself. Darker than ever and Sicker than ever. Got him a "kcool" fever plaster that I specially fridge it FOR HIM! Hoho...PASTE PASTE PASTE! Paste on his forehead and I went like..wooo~ How this will work? I hope it works definitely. Reached 5 mins later from his house. Like so near..I think crawl also will reach in 10 mins. That's absurd! *LAUGH

How I'm feeling today?
Well, I received a rather unpleasant news from someone. It actually gets on my nerve as it seems like everything was MY FAULT!? I did not please that person to do whatever shit! Why does it feels like I owe that person in the past life? Whatever it is..isn't fair. Why does it feels like I've lost more than I should? Conclusion was, knowing someone like that just down on my luck. Time I've invest? It's true that I started all these first, fault at me initially. But, right now! right at this point! I do not want to have any linkage to that person including stuff. So, a persistent person, ME! decided to clear every piece of things. Only that person gift I've cleared. I've returned what I should, except one last issue. Thinking of a way to settle it! It's the first time I met someone like that, that's why I always turn down things from someone that I think they're like that. I should have been more HEADSTRONG! Pissed!
Altogether, I realized that nothing is more important than my boyfriend. Nothing! Not even gold, silver, bronze, diamonds or any jewels! Unless it comes from my boyfriend. *Laugh!
Threw what I should, returned what I should.
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Sometimes, looking at what is left in the last drawer. Instance, felt that I was placed somewhere else. I don't know what's the reason to let alone those stuff but shouldn't it be returned? Unless, some..holding onto. Cared little about it anyway. I do not want trivial matters to upset me. Brought up the same issue for twice I guess. You seem so strong and firm with your reply. Well, I should see about it. (: You know me...There's so many things I want to get rid of my head! Sometimes, knowing too much would not be the best solution. I rather not know ANY SINGLE SHIT! (: Then I'll be able to concentrate on what I want to do. I hate my curiosity! Hate the way facts get in my face! I do not want to know! But I can't control the urge of knowing.
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Still, I pretend not to know anything though I know it clear. Exposing or revealing don't seem to change anything much. So, FORGET FORGET FORGET!
ENJOY LIFE! ENJOY EVERY MOMENT WITH YOU! (:
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Lastly, I love all my friends (: Enpei especially, though annoying at times but still my important priority (:

End O'level!
Clear all my beauty sessions!
Get a job!
return that someone stuff
work
work
work
shop
shop
shop
buy
buy
buy!

2009-10-12T01:18:00.002+08:00

Today is special! Therefore, I decided to post what I was doing few days back.

8th of September
Went to BS house and played with nephew and niece. Which reminds me of something hilarious! Ever shaved your hair at home unexpectedly shaved half of your head and the electric went dead?! And the next moment you've got an appointment with friends? I TELL YOU! It'll be extremely awkward if you walk out of your house with funny hairdo and head over the nearest barbershop though you put on a cap. That's what happened on that day! But! I'm not the one that got my hair shaved. *hahaha!*
Had our dinner at CCK's park and copious of photo shooting with our fantastic photographer...Hakim! It's was pretty awesome when everyone was shooting 5 shots in 5 and a split seconds.

9th of September
Woke up at around 30 minutes past 6 am? Washed up, changed and escorted my very important person to camp. It was EARLY! Without shilly-shallied, left home at around 7 I guess. After scrutinizing the place, I left together with his parents somehow tentatively.
The moment I reached home, I doze off soon. Was pondering over some matter these few days, perhaps from this date, thenceforth, things might change. It was expected though.
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Right at this point, I mustn't be querulous to any issues. Still, my first priority.

2009-10-12T01:15:00.000+08:00

I love this candid! Thanks to Hakim ;) (8/10/09) ORD LO! *haha

2009-10-05T00:26:00.003+08:00

Approximately 1 more month!

I'm sure that majority ones know, the National Examination is approaching! Honestly, I know there aint much effort involved likewise weak bases for any confident to build. I am still, lethargic and slothful.
Met Jyothi and Sandy the other day, time flies whereby everyone turned 18 and constructing individual future path. Sadly to say, I miss those days.
Anyway, I wont be posting much till my examinations are over. But I'll post whenever I'm not really occupied.

You've got it, and you let loose of it.
I think I'm seeing it coming, the day, approaching slowly.

2009-09-05T23:24:00.003+08:00

Gaming again! (: Suddenly all this indulge make me sick. It's going to be short post today. Went to Bryan's buffet at Hotel Royal. Somewhere near Queens street I guess, was bloated though I ate little. My blister is killing me! Argh! Wonder when then'll be my BIRTHDAY! Been waiting for dreadfully long! Ding Dong is CS-ing now while I post some stuff about today. They planned to sing today, I went..WHAT THE..sing?! Which reminds me of the day before yesterday or yesterday, don't really remember when. Lojin's was playing a game called "meetoto" over my place, my mom went crazy or what she just hurled her off. Somewhat like scolding at length. Well, she's hard to understand sometimes. I guess Lojin's was scared away by my mom. Feeling like crap now. That about it I guess.

2009-09-03T12:46:00.004+08:00

What a news! I'm still remained as 17 while others had passed their 18th birthday! I never really celebrate any of my birthday except with family and some extravagance gift from my dad. Practically, its contented. This year, I don't plan to celebrate my birthday though I know its my 18th birthday. Anyhow, every year will still be the same isn't it? Unless a exquiste one I may consider holding some small celebration.
I'm about to break a rueful news. I presume that majority know the cases of bike accident had boosted markedly. A friend of my friend had unfortunately met an accident and did not make it at last. A message to all riding bike, ride safely and be sure to take your life seriously. After so many incident alike, I felt that life is fragile. Probably, the next second would leave you an indelible mark in your life.
However, accidents is somehow inevitable to understand that. Still, I hope no one will break another rueful news to me. I hope.
Another issue that left me pondering, there's always loathes and likes in a relationship. Follow by compromising and accusing one. The give and take cycle, it had always been like that for my relatioship experienced. One confession, I used to change boyfriends like once a week but that was when I was at the age of 13 or 14. I guess its forgivable as most of the teenage started a relationship that young and often changing a new love in a way they acted impulsive.
Now, I viewed everything differently. One can keep finding new love which ever they desire, they can even go for many at once. It's that realistic everyone's getting.
More and more people are waiting for divorces, which my dad invariably remind me what a good father I'm having now. He could have decide a divorce years back but for the sake of us-his children. He tried to rectify his marriage. Unlike some other case that normally would end up in an acrimonious divorce.
Honestly, I'm thankful to have a noble dad.
Alright, got to study soon! Examinations are around the corner. (;

2009-09-01T20:44:00.002+08:00

Some problem with posting again but its okay. Anyway, went to Bugis accompanied by Sijun. Got a belt and some home clothes. It's rather a freezing day indeed! Tip of my nose felt chilling cold, that was funny. While crossing the road today, was surprised by that Kaiying's abruptly approached! I scream in the middle of the road when the green man flashed at the last 10 seconds. That was awkward and horrible behavior. My planning for now, race all the way to the examinations. Though at times I'm being so slothful and lethargic. Watched the movie-Where got ghost? Well rating was 9/10. It was really hilarious however a disadvantage for me as I do not understand the dialect. What-a-pity!
I wanted to catch the Final Destination 4, but some feedback was the movie filmed not better than the rest of Final Destination. Despite the feedback, I'm still going to catch it. Just one tiny issue; M18.

2009-08-26T17:24:00.003+08:00

At last, accomplished my english GCE 'O' Level examination! *clapping gleefully*

I've been waiting for this day! Well, I'm not sure if I did do well but at least it's a passing grade I expect. The theme was somewhat about Racial and Community bonds? If a Malay family visit a Chinese family, other than social cohesion, building neighbourhood bonds and racial bonds. I could not think of anything else. My picture discussion was badly described as I stammered alot and the invigilator prompted me quite alot of times. I really don't know what should I say about the picture. *rolled-eyes* Hopefully, I would get a band 2 or so.

I'm quite worried for one of my friend performance in school, despite the conductivity, the quality of work she produced was what worth concerning of. When there's no supervision from anyone, one should have self-discipline and independent supervise themself. I really don't know how to help her. Partially, is dependent on herself? Right? Even though it is compelling to study but afterall, the result would be the best reward isn't it? Examination are inevitable, same for slothful attitude. As long as you've set a target and determine to work for it, there shouldn't be any problem I guess. Even if you set a goal, but do not feel the important of the target, its of no use. Just like you sit and waste time, effortlessly hoping for miracle to happen.

Anyway, hope those who taking their English Oral today and the following days will do well and good luck to them (:

2009-08-24T16:26:00.003+08:00

Finally! I'm back home from school. My prelims are BAD! But better than last year, a little. Somehow I regretted not taking the Maths new syllabus. I could have scored easily a C6 for Maths. They are allowed to use calculator for both paper 1 and 2. Quite a disadvantage for the old syllabus students. I remembered my Practical exam took eariler on this month, I was totally freaked out. I'm alone in this BIG EMPTY SPACIOUS LAB! AND I MEAN ALONE! I'm like performing some MAGIC SHOW or what though there isn't any host. The invigilator would be there watching the colour of my chemicals. It was "BLUE" then I add a little THIS and it turns "DARK BLUE" Wow! Copper! But no applause. HAHA
One thoughtful advice for everyone! Please watch your steps while walking! On Saturday, I went to a Chalet. Just then, I fell in a hole digged for drainage purposes. Unlucky I thought! The place was dark as night fall, the dark hole was completely camouflaged. It looked like a rat hole or something.
I fell in love with pasta lately. The creamy sauce with spring onion on top diffuse the scent of ambrosia! Love it love it~
Ever wonder if flying bugs managed to find its way into human nostril? Its funny when some bugs actually flew in your nostril. Gross! However, it should be dead when it entered.
Another thing to share, something personal. I admire people who are not easily offended in ways of teasing. Especially towards gaming attitude. I can understand people gets worked up by other parties not close to but sometimes give a thought to people around you. Their mood or reaction might be affected or easily influenced despite little unappropriate manner. People tends to be furious or hurling their anger towards gaming are not appreciated like one kind.
Shall continue my story session. AND LASTLY, Happy birthday to Stephanie (21/8) and Enshin.

2009-08-21T17:21:00.002+08:00

I believe every Chinese would know that yesterday was the Hungry Ghost Festival. I'm here to tell everyone, even though you may not be superstitious in all kind of supernaturals but still respect though its not your belief.
There are aspects to note during this month. For example like, not to stay out late, not to dress entirely black etc.
It's always nice to remind your love ones to be more mindful during this month, you don't know how true is this supernatural exist. We are unsure about certain stuff from the other dimension or the nether world, no matter what its always safe not to risk or disrepect it.
People say that during this month, many of them would fall in their luck? Sometimes I don't really understand why.

I received a bottle of shampoo yesterday, I find it hilarious as I've never received anything like that. But THANKS UNCLE! It's still funny..
Health is always th first priority to me follow by happiness! (: So don't fall sick this month and there's plenty of joys awaiting for you (:

2009-08-20T12:21:00.003+08:00

This is the father hamster. -.-!
This was where my hamster lived.

AND NOW! WHOLE FAMILY MOVED TO BUNGALOW! WTH~ Its 3 storey with a balcony! High quality food, high quality water! high quality home! So extravagance! Better than my life uh?! LOL

Super bored!

I dont know what's with that..HAHAHA
I'm scary monster! -.-!

Oh! My forehead was cut by my lappy batt. So hard to explain. -.- It dint bleed at first, or I wasn't pay attention to my head..but it just felt painful. When I went to wash up..it bleed. Cool man! Bloody in action!

This is how the new born hamster looks like. Its gross and naked! Resemble the naked mole uh?! However, they've grown fur and finally could open their eye.

I did not go to school today, having stomach cramp and all sorts of nonsense. But I studied at home instead. Now I realised I've removed all the links I should not have removed. So troublesome when you have to check all the blogs one by one. I'm impatient in doing that.

So, I passed all my test except for maths. My maths really suck. Wonder if its from my parents gene, I blamed my parents for that. HAHA! Okay its ridiculous when I told my dad about the inheritance of genes. He strongly disagree with me. Fine! I just thought of slipping away with that excuse and give up upon my maths. No matter how hard I practice practice..it don't work.

I got back my chinese 'O' level result, IT WAS STILL THE SAME! Just that my oral for this year is merit instead of distinction. Should I retake if my result; B3 MERIT. Should I? Aww!

English Oral is approching, 26th of Aug if I din't remember wrongly, Stephanie's birthday around this week! No idea what to get for her. M.A.C eyeliner? She wanted one..

August is a busy month! Birthdays, chalets, parties. I must not let these temptations influence me. Still, play when I should study when I should! YES YES YES! Yesterday in class, my fellow classmates are super hilarious. They were playing sort of concentration game but with wording link. It's hard to explain unless you look at them playing. They always come up with new entertainments, I think they can go invent games. Half a day gone, what should I do later? Study first now? Then hang out?

Shall update again~

2009-08-18T11:03:00.002+08:00

Finally, finished the layouts and the links. I realised many of them deleted or changed their blog links without informing. I've removed those I'm not close with or I don't really know. Sorry about that, no point keeping links but you don't know that person. Strange! There are still alot of them changed their links, which I think would be very troublesome for me to search one by one and remove them. English result distributed, GOD! I passed merely by 3 pathetic marks. Even for my class English topper claimed not doing well for English Prelims.
My Teacher said she had marked and screened the paper strictly, more like deliberately deduct marks from our paper. An idea from a friend~
Waiting for the rest of the papers to be distribute, I planned to sleep only for 7 hours a day. So I would have more time for revising? Should I?
The most and least confident in Science and Math paper. I think I did not do well for my chinese this year, just felt this way.
My sister's Hamster delivered 5 babies! But unfortunately! one was eaten up left with the headless body. That was gruesome and gross! Definitely, I'm not the sinner.
I've been watching this commercial from Cadbury Chocolate, and this computerised edition from the same kids. They are fantastic! I mean, it's hard to control the wavelike and the direction movement of your eyebrowns. They moved like...as if it was faked eyebrowns.
But they were really awesome! (: Kids with talent; wavelike eyebrowns.
However, I don't really understand the commercial, what is the link with the eyebrown and the chocolate? I'll be blogging more often like before (:

2009-08-03T13:16:00.002+08:00

Wow! Its been long since I update. Was busy with my prelims lately, today is my english paper. I managed to finish it and fast! :) glad. Next paper, geography and math. No confident in my math paper, I simply dislike math. Too confusing. I'm using my phone to blog again as I really don't have time to set up my laptop and blog. Hopefully, after my prelims! :) shall post more pictures of singapore flyers! The ride was fun! You hardly notice that it was moving :) saving up for presents! Stunning news! I'm 36kg now. Oh no! The pressures and stuff that I feel dutiful of kept me real busy and skipping meals. For those who are going for diet, don't take any pills or what. More effective is radically control your diet. I'm having 2 or less meals a day. Sometimes, 1meal. I remembered I used to eat alot, 4meals per day. No intentions of slimming, just got so tied up for programs. Oh well, here's an adage which I felt true. Aristotle: The root of education is bitter, but the fruit is sweet. I'll keep myself moving on from this adage as motivation. :) pictures shall be uploaded when i'm not really preoccupied.

2009-06-23T16:00:00.002+08:00

Feel like updating something today. This is the last week of my holiday, felt that I have misused them and time will never pause down or wait. I must not continue like this! Last Sunday, played versus with some friends and was thrashed! Loser must save some diginity for themselves, what I can say is they are good. After the versus, went to Mac to chill. Guess what?! I witnessed a girl with Malaysian accent, she fell from the stairs! Just that moment I laughed but I wasn't laughing at her. She hurled at me with her nice phrases and walked off. I swear I wasn't laughing at her. I got infuriated by her thus, I think her fall was what she deserved it. *laugh*

"Desmond" want to be shown in my blog.

Now I understand, its reliance I called it.
To you, is loving more each day.

2009-06-16T15:16:00.002+08:00

2009-06-15T16:31:00.007+08:00

This is the clip on my coursin hair, forgot to rotate the picture.

Her's is whale! Mine is HORSE!

The room I stayed in chalet

Packing up and leaving Malaysia!

The beach at Malaysia!

I got doublecone ICECREAM!

This is the Chalet name~

The bus ride to chalet is 2HOURS LONG!

sentosa~

Hey everyone! I'm back from Malaysia! (: Went to Malaysia Chalet and camp fire there (: That place is really nice but was freezing cold at night. Had some shots but was little. I thought that I can still contact my friends over there! Utter disappointment, NO! We set off to the Malaysia checkpoint by BUS! Completely no reception. And my phone using purpose was Cam, music and MUSIC! Then, Battery went flat. Super turn off~ I bought Bubblegums only! Then I brought phlegm to myself and coughing non-stop. It was hot then cold there, maybe my body system still cannot adapt to the enviroment there. One more thing to share! THE MOSQUITOES IN MALAYSIA IS VERY BIG! VERY UNUSUAL IN SINGAPORE! ARGH!

2009-05-31T00:41:00.004+08:00

Today! I'm happy :) Things went smoothly. For the past one month, I wasn't in good mood. As i thought when things changed, the way I lead my life will change, but no. Was rather contented. Lately, into gaming but as my exams are approaching, enjoying days are over! I've got to study! And lastly! I love soo yi jung! His my boyfriend! Haha! Everyone should watch boys over flower! :)

2009-05-11T09:58:00.003+08:00

Why should I be bothered! Why would I even care?!

I'm just that gullible. Thank you! Giving me this state.

I just can't convince myself not to think about it. The fact!

There's nothing left between us both

I've used all up.

This painting represented the memory. The reality we feared.
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有一句话

再也都听不到

那些过往

只好放在心上

你爱我太美好

时间会知道

怎样去熬成一句动人的话

有一句话

再也都听不到

那些过往让它自己燃烧

我爱你太美好

时间会知道

怎样去熬成动人一句话

2009-04-29T16:15:00.003+08:00

I can't believe, the day has come. I had failed once but I cant afford to fail the second time. Maybe I should just concentrate on my studies. It's a tough choice but that's the only way. I shall wait while study, I believe everything will get back to before. I really believe.. :) I will still hold on my faith, maybe you'll do the same :)

2009-04-24T20:50:00.002+08:00

Hey everybody! I'm blogging again! This time, different! Am posting with my phone! WLAN now is so advance, I can lie on my bed, holding my phone like I'm messaging. How cool is that?! But it does feel weird as there's NO MOUSE! But still cool. The weather now is getting warmer! Its an alert to everyone out there! Its time to do something about it! :) Something like, RECYCLE? Reduce? Reuse? A little more conservative?

2009-04-21T17:24:00.002+08:00

ARGH! I HATE SMOKER! Nasty monster. I was killed by smoker and hunter ALOT OF TIMES. Boring! Shall try expert later on! ((: Got to study! SEE YA! (:

2009-04-20T16:29:00.003+08:00

School's boring! Wonder if how long can I hold on. Jyothi went back to school to take her O'level cert. Pretty Jyothi with her smart wear. *LAUGH! I miss all my friends,but I'm always unable to make time for them. Tests around the around! God!

I love Twilight soundtracks (:

Shall update more when I've got time! Gonna play L4D now! Boomer is going to BOOM!

Big spender~ Yeah! extravagance theory~

2009-04-08T21:03:00.003+08:00

I will be having alot tests tomorrow! Geez! No idea can I revise all in ONE day!
Oh! Fast and Furious 4 is out tomorrow! I want!!!! TO WATCH! But I'll be so tied up in my tests and school stuff. Geez..Anyway, Oral should be alright I guessed? Just BULL****! You might even get an ACE! (: You have to be extremely talkative during the conversation part. I remembered last year my oral, extremely NERVOUS! My hands are cold, I had butterfly in my stomach. I had been telling myself, time is dwindling. It very crucial this year and I will not deceive myself by thinking I had plenty of time. THERE IS NO MUCH TIME LEFT! I have to drill that in! In few days more, my friends will be schooling. It's probably a new start for them, new friends and classmate. Fresh faces they'll see. I'm so envy! I yearn to start my life in a campus with no uniforms, no heavy bags and different enviroment compared to where I am studying now. Without further delay! I am going to start drilling math, social study and science into my head now! Later~

I can no longer deceive myself as the facts are clearer than I know.
You've changed!
No longer the one I know.
But why?

2009-04-08T20:50:00.003+08:00

This is the Ezlink I've designed in year 2007. I guessed. Not for sale. HAHA

My Starhub Colleagues! (: LOVE THEM! Thanks Jiabao!

Like group of HOOLIGANS uh? LOL

Yes! I'm fat! Whatever! (:

On the way to sentosa. EARLY IN THE MORNING 8AM OKAY!? Freakin tired.

In the bus~

LOL I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOIN!

2009-04-07T22:10:00.004+08:00

Hey people! I'm blogging again. I realised I'll blog only when I'm fed up or there's stuff to share! (:
I wished, badly that I'm living my life as a legal age citizen. There's so many stuff that I can't do legally! Well, I'm not sure if I should post this but I just feel like telling! *roar!*
On the 1st of April 2009, as I recalled, I think that day can fit smoothly to my "MOST UNLUCKY DAY" category. Any idea what happened that day? Let me share~
I got caught for whatever nonsense on APRIL FOOL! Can you imagine? When I told my friends that I was caught for "THIS" they simply thought I was playing april fool. Forget it. I got carbonated drinks spilled on me! I even got choked for having just a bite of crips! Geez! I'm extremely fed up and pissed off! I post some picture when there's plenty of time. For now, my sleep is essential. Not gonna missed it! (:

Now I know, it was just an infatuation for you. You can do whatever you want. You can make your choice firmly. There's nothing I can say. This feeling had long dwindled. I just feel that I'm not reciprocated. Needless to say, you just don't want to stay. What can I say? Thinking it through, I'm sure that I have not been cold as you. You leave as you like, stay as you like.
There's nothing you can take from me anymore, cause I'm all empty!
It's an utter disappointment. Maybe I shoul just let go.

2009-03-17T12:28:00.003+08:00

What is wrong with some people nowadays? Forget it. School stuffs is driving me crazy, the routine repeated for 1 year and freak'o I'm gonna continue the routine in school. No big deal, some people had been through either. I can do it as well!

My classmates are nice and friendly. Some weirdo and some must have worked in circus before. My class this year is very different from my class last year. They are so attentive during maths and some other lessons but not all, despite their hardworking, they are also very mischievous.

Apart from my school stuff, life is different too. New friends and best friends. I missed them all.

I can see the difference without you

But I can't see you with any difference without me

I realised its not the surrounding that changed you

you changed for the surrounding

thus, making this an obstacle for me to never catch up with you.

2009-03-10T15:55:00.006+08:00

This is Long Wen ((:

This is JiaBao

It's super cold out here!

ZhenJie and his friend

That's Enpei HAHA!

JiaBao don't want to take pictures with me! I don't care ((:

The Light is dim here.

Say hello to stitch! ;)

I'm drawing Sijun LOL!Okay, I don't know what I'm drawing

Nice ending.

She's happily eating away. I treated her to Border's Bistro.
That Enpei's

This is MINE! feasted with my ICE CHOCOLATE!

I actually wanted to bring my Panda to school as I got 4 free period. It'll be useful by then BUT! I CANT SQUEEZE IT INTO MY BAG! SHOOT!

I'd update later on (:

2009-02-16T21:33:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE! (: I'm back in school and it still feels the same. Lethargic!* I'll never get excited about school, I mean who will!? Anyway, I got this really bad swell on my hand recently. Was scalded by hot boiling oil. I can see bubbles on my hand *laugh* It freaking pain! I was holding on to an ice throughout the day, without ice, here comes my agony! HAHA (:
I hope everyone had their fantastic Valentine's (: Roses and love reciprocated. My favourite Rose colour is, Black. You can hardly find them and even if you do, the black roses may not be that black.

Time really flies! I'm starting to miss my colleagues. And I'm still a little upset with Bryan. ;(
There is some misunderstanding, well, I apologised but..fine. I miss my Mummy-like (Elaine), Angela, Cindy, Jason, BRYAN!!,Longwen,Jiabao etc.
Man~They are having their lunch and dinner WITHOUT ME! But, really got to thanks them. Whenever I need help, they are the one I can look for.

School-life, I bet everyone can imagine. I can only say that its a routine.
Though it may be tough this year, but, I got to pull myself through!
I'll be having a Chinese test tomorrow and god! I have no comment for my Chinese.

Anyway, got to run~
Takecare all my bestie peeps! I'll update about school stuff again, It'll be boring but if you still want to know what i'm doing in school (:

2009-02-16T19:30:00.006+08:00

I was scald by hot BOILING OIL!
OMG, MY HAND.

HAPPY VALENTINE EVERYONE! Thanks Boy (:

My dad is out! So am I (:

This is Cindy, I got all my latest information, THANKS TO HER! *LAUGH * MISSES!

This is Longwen (: He walk abit like retard.

2009-02-07T01:08:00.002+08:00

I saw the promises you made shattered into pieces. You claimed stuff only to deceive me, I trusted you but I couldn't let the lies blinded me through. I thought I know you well but not forgotten, you were masking yourself ever since. You brought every pining thoughts to me but that doesn't make me dislike you. You will never feel enough, keep wanting more to fill your desire. I hate your desires, your inhuman thoughts and everything that has to be rectify. The grave seems clearer, I saw the end, approaching. How could you, done something immoral, ruthless and broken. I've sense, you not there with me, anymore.

I've got to leave, before you speak.
An empty bottle that once filled with a story of us.
An alluring figure broke the bottle and re-compose every detail of the story, sealed it into another bottle and let it flow to the directions of wind.
Why is the bottle fragile as lives, too easily, breakable.

2009-01-19T18:20:00.002+08:00

Hey guys! I've been working recently in Starhub! (: But I don't do deal alright?!

I'm thinking of repeating in school because I failed my O' level badly and couldn't get into the course I want. And there's something really ridiculous! I went to check out the SEAB GCE O'level of 2009. They still do provide the old syllabus but its the last year they offer, doesn't matter as a school candidate or private candidate. But I told my Discipline Master about this issue, he said I HAVE TO follow the school syllabus. I mean I don't get it. Shouldn't they provide something that can benefit the pupils? If they insist, the new syllabus is going to thrash the repeat student, so for what they take their O' level? I really want to work hard this year but there isn't any second chance offered to me! And I'm pretty mad with this issue.

He bought me a creative zen pink MP4! ((: Happy~

I'm going out now to meet a long lost friend! And seriously, I haven't seen that friend for years.

2008-12-22T12:17:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Bf!

2008-12-22T11:23:00.003+08:00

I don't know what am I doing, to let you continue enjoying the love from other girls. Yes I'm the biggest fool, I mentioned in the first place that I want a serious relationship but not forgotten, today I'm taken for granted.

In the past, I don't care. Now, you're giving me these! What do you actually want?!

Till now, I understand, you never really love anyone in your life.

The one you love exceptionally, youself.

It's not your problem how others are feeling.

As long as you are leading good life, surrounding people are just an object in your life in getting what you want.

You'll never appreciate, never learn to love, never learn to give and take.

You'll never get enough.

I don't understand, am I suppose to be like chloe?

Happiness will only be rewarded after grievance.

刷牙我想哭

洗脸我想哭

走路我想哭

静止我想哭

出太阳我想哭

起风我想哭

听歌我想哭

看喜剧我想

我控制不住自己

负担冭重的情绪

我拒绝面对结局

沉重的问题我不想听

伱给的很多规矩

说了很久的道理

却瞒不了我的伈

再压抑再压抑

我快不行.. (兲摇地动昏天暗地)

有眼泪没眼泪伱觉得我疯了

我瞬间耳鸣

听不见伱们说的

我疯言我疯语

眼泪让我瞎了

我哭我眼前丗界

原来快楽要用悲伤换的

刷牙我想哭

洗脸我想哭

走路我想哭

静止我想哭

出太阳我想哭

起风我想哭

听歌我想哭

看喜剧我想

我控制不住自己

负担冭重的情绪

我拒绝面对结局

沉重的问题我不想听

伱给的很多规矩

说了很久的道理

却瞒不了我的伈

再压抑再压抑

我快不行.. (兲摇地动昏天暗地)

有眼泪没眼泪

伱觉得我疯了

我瞬间耳鸣

听不见伱们说的

我疯言我疯语

眼泪让我瞎了

我哭我眼前丗界

原来快楽要用悲伤换的

可知不知道

伱莂在否认

我要的自由能不能够永生

可是我累了

我只好哭了

我像疯子的般不停的哭

我没有出路

伱也当我是个疯子

我是个疯子

2008-12-09T12:42:00.001+08:00

2008-12-09T11:47:00.002+08:00

I've got a precadiment during my birthday. Something about life; things changed. Everything in this world are almost camouflage. Obscuring reality and deceiving one.

I've made some new friends but also lost friends that meant alot to me. Maybe, I'm wrong.

I shouldn't have done that, and now, I blurred his life. Its all my fault.

Sometimes, I really want him back in my life badly. I should have thought of the joy he brought to me than those arguement we fought. I'm truly sorry.

There's something I want to clarify, but forget it. I'll just state here.

If you think its totally my fault that led him in this situation, prove to me you are right then.

Whatever it should be done I've done. You can condemm me for fcuk* I care.

I know its my fault to confide everything about it. But I've talked him out and forget it.

Not only I bring it up to him, but also my closest friend; Stephanie. If you are so extremely super unhappy about me, talk to me personally. If you think I'm only sitting around couch while clock ticking away, talk him out instead! I've tried okay! Don't view things when you know NOTHING about it.

I'm starting work tomorrow, 9am in the morning. Its super early alright. I don't have the mood to blog anything now. toodles~

2008-11-20T22:14:00.004+08:00

GUYS! I'm rottin at home! It has been an extremely boring HOLIDAY for me! I thought holidays were meant to be FUN AND WILD?! Gee! Holidays dint fill me with any fun!

Anyway, I went to Jurong point today for my interview! Hopefully I can get started with my work! 1.4k HERE I COME!

I was interviewed by a guy, caucasian. He prompted some questions that

No. 1: I don't quite understand.

No.2: I don't know what should I say.

The first question he asked me was something like, if you are trying to promote something but apparently, no one seems to be interested in you. What would you feel? or do?

I replied in a way I don't even know what am I saying! I said, I will seek for there attentions by??

I stammered. Actually, by smiling at them would be easier for you to approach them. This was the answer.

Another question was, do you think that you'll be able to cope with this line?

I replied, yes. My previous line was something got to do with sales. I guess it wouldn't be a problem for me? I doubted.

I was feeling pensive today, neither feel like going out nor talk. But I was left with no choice as Sijun is complaining about her tutor fees. I've got to work.

Is SGD$140/5hrs+ considered cheap? Sijun taught me maths during my O'level examination. From 11pm to 3am or later, forgotten. But after that her interest in teaching me soon went dry but more interested in having the perfect note in every single snore that came out from her dry, phlem throat.

So I thought, after all I still have to count on myself so I kept drinking bottles and bottles of essence to keep me awake. I stayed up all night observing the saliva she drool went sleeping *Laugh.

Kidding, she wasn't drooling.

Anyway, my dad was the one that drove me there and home. On our way home after he parked his car, we had already walked nearly to my block and he break the news: Did I locked my car?

Com'on! aint no kidding! We were like 10steps away from the lift! So I went pissed.

He handed me his car keys and asked me to locked and take his wallet from the car.

After I took the keys, I dint really hear him mention any wallet stuff.

So happily swinging the keys climbed the stairs and UP THE SLOPE towards his car. First, I like the feeling of unlocking the car sound. Second, there is a werido uncle staring at me. I know what his thinking. He thought I drive that car and I look underage. Or he might be thinking I'm trying to steal stuff? I'm over sensative alright, so after checking the car's locked I went off forgot about the WALLET!

I handed the keys to my dad and he showed me that ****** face. The wallet! Have to make another trip for that wallet. So I thought to myself, I have to face that uncle again?! It turns out just what I thought. He was staring at me till I unlocked the car. OMG! DO I REALLY LOOK LIKE A KID? OR THEIF?

I want a fairlady when I'm 21! Ridin out in the orchard road! WOOHOO!! My dream (: It's gonna come true! All I have to do is wait for 21 and a car license. Then! SELL OFF MY DAD'S CAR and get myself a fairlady ((:

2008-11-15T02:11:00.005+08:00

Morning! ((: I'm spending hours deleting some of my past post. Was actually reviewing them and when I start reading what actually happened in the past I was really dejected. The post was years ago and the way I actually type every word was like ******* children. That's how I behave years ago, I was only sec 3!

And I remember a trend of typing eg. Me = Mii
OMFG! Even now my brother is actually typing these! I jeered at him sometimes and GUYS with these typing, I viewed them as GAY *Laugh!
But seriously, I hate the past. I just can't delete them all at once! That's how pissed off I get when I got 44 post to delete and I can only get to delete them one by one. MAN~ its wasting effort.
I can never delete all. I've got so many post!

Anyway, I went to meet Jerica and played with Valent. Unique name right!? Rarely heard of name like that. Actually planning of playing Mahjiong but I'm not good at it, I don't really know when to call for straight or whatever. I might even throw out the needed sets. So I thought I can learn from Jerica yesterday, she's Mahjiong queen! Never ever ever play with her if betting, its a digging own grave logic. But at the end of the day, we din't get to play Mahjiong. Aww~
Instead, we play Poker card. She teaches me a new card game, one of those she learnt from Pub.
And loser have to drink ONE WHOLE BOTTLE OF WATER. Preferably chilled.
Guess what?! I loser! She's good at it and I'm only a learner, taking advantage right?!
So I drank the whole bottle. I know..Bully. *Laugh
After some game I played with Valent, and he grew up alot. The last time I saw him, he was so tiny.
He likes to grab people hand and put into his mouth. *hmm
After her house, I went home straight. I've got Ngee Ann Poly Parents seminar talk. Jess! I know it'll take dreadfully long!
On Monday afternoon, have to go Recruit Expess office for interview. Guys! If you got Job offer count me in!

Lastly, Kaiying took her flight to Taiwan! When is it going to be my turn?! France?! or Barcelona?! I love these places, they are really beautiful. I always wanted find out the stories behind Leonado Davinci. Who is Mona Lisa? Second wife? I want to observe the real painting of his. However, I did try to watch Da vinci code but I was soon put to sleep. *laugh
Pictures shall be uploaded when free ((:

2008-11-11T14:48:00.000+08:00

BYE EVERYONE! SHIYU IS GOING OUT TO ENJOY! MISS ME! I'LL BE BACK! (:

2008-11-10T18:45:00.001+08:00